I’ve been in a bleak creative rut lately. I feel like doing nothing creative at all. I’ve had no inspiration, interest, or will to do anything. Go to work, come home, eat, and waste time watching movies and surfing the web. A dull, boring, purposeless, vacuous existence.

So in an effort to give myself a bit of purpose, I’ve been working on putting together a Kickstarter campaign called “Give me some money to smile again.”

OK, it’s not called that… it’s actually fundraising for that book on melody that I’ve been writing on and off for years. The Secrets of Melody. It details my theory of melody, including how my melody generators work. Basically, if I can raise the funds, I can finish it by March 2016. Of course, I have hardly any online following, so I know it’s a long shot. Seems worth a try though, especially as I feel no great desire to do much else at the moment.

And if I fail to raise the funds, I’m going to go ahead buy an Oculus Rift dev kit and start having some fun with it to make myself feel better. So it’s a win-win for me. And I might buy one regardless because I’ve been dreaming of VR and I’ve got some fun ideas for projects I’d like to try with it. But if there’s enough interest for my book on melody, I’d love to make that a priority.

Anyway, I just have to make the Kickstarter video, which is hard because I’m the self-conscious type who hates looking at a video of himself. But I’ll try anyway.

So look out for that sometime this week.


Scott · September 15, 2015 at 3:24 PM

You should make a PowerPoint in lieu of a kickstarter video… it’s what we always did to avoid presentations anyways…

You could have Babby Bip guest star (though I suppose she got eaten by Berney in that Sonnets presentation, so maybe not.). LOL.

Scott · September 15, 2015 at 3:27 PM

PS: I feel your pain on the rut thing… it’s been months for me too. I keep re-writing the same section of a DPC chapter over and over again with slight variations because it never sounds quite right to me, and I can’t seem to move on from it either…

S P Hannifin · September 16, 2015 at 6:56 AM

Hahahaha… a PowerPoint would actually be tempting… but I already shot the video after reading about how much showing your actual face supposedly increases the chances of success. Makes it seem more personal I guess. Just have to edit it now. Hoping it won’t be too dorky / cringe-worthy, but it admittedly isn’t the most professional looking thing out there, with my cheapo camera, cheapo mic, bad lighting, terrible skin-tone, over-saturated hair color, and lack of interesting shooting location…

Re the rut: It’s unfortunately even beyond the unproductive-ness of perfectionism for me; I haven’t even been trying; lost even the motivation and interest to do even that… whether or not it succeeds, hopefully this Kickstarter thing has at least helped me get some neurotransmitters firing again…

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